I think its over already lor...

I think it ended as quickly as it started. I'm glad i have enjoyable trip & spending romantic moments with him in belgium.

I've long given up on love. Why do I always find the wrong people? Is it because Im not pretty enough?Perhaps Im not smart enough too? I seriously got no idea at all...and I dont wanna care. I am what I am.I cant change for him, neither can I change to be someone Im not.Then it's not me anymore, no?

But for love, i tried to change myself for him. I wanted our relationship to last long, So i gave up my favourite drinking & partying to stay home on weekends to MSN chat with him. I controlled my temper, i never blow it @ him even though he said stuffs to hurt mi. When he says " U better be home by 1am, or i will be angry " I never said NO to him, even though it was my closed friend's birthday celebration.

Sometimes i felt it doesn't pay good to be nice. Or maybe there is something amiss in our relationship. least that's how i feel. He always give mi the feeling that he is hiding something from me, what is it i don't know..

I truly liked him, likedddddd him enough to tell it to the world that I like him. But now, I've got nothing but heartache. I hope he will tell mi straight in my face that he wants a breakup. Rather than avoiding mi. it keeps mi staying up the night to think .. WHY ? Did i do anything wrong? I'm not being paranoid here abt my guy doesn't returns my calls & SMSes. U know .. woman's 6th sense is very strong. I am already prepared to hear the worse news from him.

Thanks to all my friends who gave me advices, consoles. I will be fine. Just need time to heal up my wound. I'm going to love myself more than I love anybody in the world. Speaking of LOVE? no love doesnt really matters now, coz frriends are forever isnt it? I'm glad i have nice friends with mi encouraging mi all the time. Oh well, they encouraged mi to go out partying tonight & drink to the fullest coz its Wed (ladies nite) and i've just fallen out of love, -again.


Anyway, sheron asked mi if i know momo's ladies toilet bowl is kira !! i said no? i didn't notice the bowl u see.. so on the eve of CNY, i went to momo.. and its really the gold bowl !!! looks so striking gold & it's nice!!!! :)