Well........

i was out with gary today for dinner & as well with stefan & his gf. was actually going to pasir gudang with them... but.... HIM texted mi to ask if i wanna meet up with him etc. The prob's that i still likes him, and have soft spot for him. On the other hand, i wanna spend time with gary too because it's been long, since we last dated. Dilemma ah!!!! Eventually..... i still choose to meet HIM . i am always silly, naive & foolish..all the time.

It's so nice to kiss him after such long period of time. Not so long afterall, 3mths+ only. keke. Feeling's so sweet, so sensual.. I wonder if i still loves him, or the lust in mi is acting up.. And he melted my heart when he whispers in my ear .. " baby, i miss u .. " i almost feel like i could fly !!!

I guess i'm falling in love with him again.

But still, it's complicated btw us. I don't know if i'm still consider his gf. And i don't know how to trust him too. The security's no longer there. It would be tough & bitter if we are continuing the relationship.

I really need to sort out my thoughts. Moreover, he doesn't have much time to spend with mi. His only free-time of the week is only sat. He doesn't need mi at all, seriously.

I just fucking hate the idea of falling in love!!!!!!!!!! headache!!!!!!!! i don't wanna feel anything for him......pleassseeeee.....

Because, i don't wanna be hurt again. It's so pain :(