Because i am so free lately, so i decided to delete & sort out the 648 emails in my hotmail account, usually i don't read emails from there, for people who knows mi & needs my attention will drop mi a mail to sugar22@singnet.com.sg or my another personal singnet mail account.

Upon deleting all the junk mails, i chanced upon the emails that Jon & i exchanged during his stay in Europe. While reading the mails again, lots of memories flashed back & i felt he was really caring towards mi at that time. Till today, i'm not sure if its all bullshit or real concern towards mi, it doesn't matters anymore, coz he is no longer the man which i yearns to be with & spending time together. I think no man can melt my heart, for my heart is cold & stone hard now. I no longer believes that true love exist. I always meet the wrong guy, is it because of my high expectations? Well, if having a guy just to make mi smile & be happy are high expectations, then I am speechless. I always believed in love at 1st sight, so the 1st look into the man's eyes will make mi understand if we have the chemistry & bond together. But since i'm wrong for the 153299269 times, i think i should just stopped believing in love at first sight.

Love hurts & i would rather remain single for the rest of my life than to feel agony. I experienced the heartache twice in my whole 22years of living. The pain is unbearable & i cried myself to sleep every night, wherever i go, tears just rolled down. It took mi quite sometime to get myself on feet again, so that's when i promised to myself, i will never ever be putting my 100% of feelings into a relationship anymore. From then on, i never believe in love again.

I need to get a digital camera soon, the mobile that i'm using, the camera function sucks big time so i don't have a proper 1 to take pictures. I used to take lots of photos whenever i go clubbing, or anywhere i go. Any recommendations on the digi cam? I'm meeting up with juney in zouk tmr night, 2 ladies partying, celebrating singlehood.

baby, sometimes love just ain't enough..... :)

Love,
Jamie