An open message to mr D:

Dear mr D, although we have known each other for 7 years, but u made me know more about u for the past 2 weeks.

It was quite a surprise for me when u asked to be your girlfriend, since u know me well, and knew I always prefer rich men. Since i agreed, it means though i wanna have a rich guy, but nevetheless i still choose love over money. And i don't mind even if u are not rich at all, because i believe u are still young and will work hard for your future, so then u can take good care of me.
But now u made me believe that I'm naive or rather stupid enough to believe in u. I should have chosen money & not love in the 1st place.

Didn't u realise I had never said I like u or I love u ? Because I feel this 3 words are very sacred .. in a way like u should only say it when u really mean it. That's why i don't feel anything when u said "I LOVE U" to me. How much do u love me for only afew days as a couple? Action speaks louder than words.

It's definitely your loss for not choosing me. I've always been nice and took care of u for this short 2 weeks. And because I know u are tight for money, I never took taxi fare from u, and I never request u to bring me to luxury restaurants, even if I did, I am the one paying for it.
And now that u told me your ex girlfriend whom u love very much has been contacting u, u feel like u wanna go back with her, but scared to hurt my feelings..bla bla bla...

Don't fucking act like u are so nice to me can? Pls also don't give me those very low pitched tone of voice over the phone like u are feeling so upset. ARE U REALLY SO UPSET?!?! Come on la, I bet u are playing PSP games like usual after u hang up the phone with me. Because I know u don't feel a pinch at all. Since u already made up your mind to patch back with her, don't fucking give me those "hey i'm sorry.. i know it's unfair.. because u are nice.. " No need to bullshit with me, and stop wasting our time.

And if u are with somebody whom u loved so much, u will be happy, and I'll be happy for u seriously :) I mean to find a couple deeply in love with each other is so rare nowadays, so I'm glad u found your soul mate u see. So pls don't fucking let me know in future that both of u broke up. I was the 1 who back out from this triangle shit, so don't waste my effort and take good care of her.

Don't bother to ask... anyway, I FEEL LIKE SHIT NOW AND FEEL LIKE PUNCHING U IN THE FACE, THROW AWAY YR PSP, SMASH YR MACBOOK & DELETE ALL THE SONGS U RECORDED, THROW ALL YR SHOES UNDER THE RAIN, CUT AWAY ALL YOUR JEANS, SET FIRE TO YOUR HAIR, HIRE SOMEONE WITH HIV TO RAPE U, OR YOUR BIG BLACK DOG TO CHEW AWAY ALL YOUR FINGERS SO U CAN'T PLAY GUITAR FOREVER, SCRATCH YOUR BAREFEET WITH FORKS, SPIKE YOUR DRINK WITH LAXATIVE PILLS ....

I'll only do those stuffs to u in my dreams, don't worry.

Although it's a short 2 weeks, I still appreciate for the little bit of care u showered me. Thank u and all the best to u :)

Warmest wishes,
Jamie