I screwed things up again.
I'm supposely to go for my FT test this monday but I've just booked air ticket to BKK this fri & coming back on Mon. The worse part is that I've to do an evaluation 2 weeks b4 the test which I totally forgot abt it ? Fuck ?! And now that I've to wait till like end of June for the re-test. Waste of my money & waste of my time. I'm dreaming man. Very pissed with myself :(

I've been pondering alot, trying ways to improve my life. My life is really in a mess & so upside down. Relationship & Career wise both sucks. I really need a new job, but I don't know where to go. I'm so lost. Maybe I should really listen to Sheron & try flying instead. I need $$$$$$$$$$. So many things to do, but yet so little $.

Good night folks.